I have
struggled with writing this post because as of Monday, I am in the second half
of the semester. It seems silly as a
date as a societal construct for marking time, but I feel it. I can feel my time here drawing to a close. And I don’t want it to end; Swansea has
become home.
I don’t
remember the first time I called Alva home.
I am sure it was sometime in my freshman year, probably in a text to my
roommate. But I don’t have a distinct
memory of a time I identified Alva, a place where my family did not live with
me, as home. The same can be said here
in Swansea. Suddenly, Swansea is
home. Of course, I miss my family and
friends, but Swansea is no longer a place I am visiting on vacation. It is somewhere I live.
Maybe
Swansea is home because I have friends who love and care for me. Maybe Swansea is home because I finally have
several assignments due and I am using every standard excuse to
procrastinate. Maybe Swansea is home
because my flat mates have become true friends.
Or maybe, Swansea is home for all of those reasons and so many more.
It seems
silly, but I think the things I will miss most about my time here are not the
opportunities to travel or the new adventures, but the everyday things. I will miss laughing with my flat mates when
a cat jumps through our kitchen window at lunchtime. I will miss my professors here who know so
much and are so kind. I will miss
hearing all of the accents. I will miss
my home.
I know I
have more than a month left here, but the time is growing short. I am officially in the second half of my term
here. I don’t know that I am ready for
that. I miss my family, but I am
starting to realize that I have more than one family. I have the family I was given at birth,
complete with a mom, dad, brother, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and
cousins. I have my Northwestern family
made up of friends, acquaintances, and professors alike. And now, I have a Swansea family.
Just as I
miss my family while I am here, I will miss my Swansea family while I am away
as well. This experience has been so
wonderful. I don’t want it to end. I know, believe me, I know, I have plenty of
time left, but I also know that my time is finite. That is so clear here because I know when I
will be leaving. The plane ticket is
booked. I know when my time here will
end.
But, that
is not the only time that will be ending.
Soon, my time at Northwestern will end.
Then my time in a post-grad program and as a PhD Candidate will
end. One day, even my time on earth will
end. I know that seems rather deep and
possibly silly as I was just talking about a cat jumping through the window,
but it is true. I am not guaranteed a
certain amount of time here on this earth.
So I have to make every moment count.
That means
repeating myself (and remembering to slow down) when I accidently speak
“American” instead of English. Making
every moment count means laughing and enjoying this time with my flat
mates. It even means doing my best on
every assignment that comes my way, working hard and putting effort in on
everything, because I am not guaranteed time to come back and try again.
But most
importantly, living to make each moment count means celebrating the special
moments in each of my families. I always
heard the adage “home is where the heart is” and thought it meant that my home
would always be where my family lived.
But now I know that is not true.
My heart is now spread across the world; it is in Enid, Alva, and
Swansea. By the time I finish with
school, I don’t know that I will be able to count all the places I count home. And that’s okay.
I miss you
all dearly, and can hardly wait to be back with you all again.
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